one year ago today...
One year ago today we received a phone call that would change our lives forever. (I know, pretty sappy, but it's true.) Our social worker called and asked if I was sitting down. I thought there was a problem with our home study. She said that they had a referral for us and I nearly passed out. I thought it was a bad joke. Then I asked if she had called the right people. Clearly we were still in the paper chase mindset, not at all in a place where we even dreamed of a phone call like that one.I called Ken and picked him up from work so that we could read the referral info together.
We didn't see his little face until the next day but we knew that night that we had a son.
This is a link to our announcement post last year.
Looking at his little face was so surreal. Falling in love with a photo is a strange experience. On some level it becomes hard to believe that a photo is your child. You find yourself searching the photos for clues... is he happy? does he smile? what does his cry sound like?
Looking at this photo now has so much more significance than it did then. Now it is the very first glimpse that we had into our son's life. It will be the earliest baby photo that he will posses. To new parents looking at the photo for the first time it was a picture of a tiny sleeping baby adorably holding his hands by his ears, but it was difficult to wrap our brains around the fact that said tiny baby was our tiny baby. To a mother who now knows her child, this photo was taken of my slightly unhappy babe who was struggling to get to sleep. He seemed so far away. I couldn't imagine that one year later he would be sitting in the living room happily watching Sesame Street while I typed a post about our referral phone call. I can hardly believe it has been a year since we first heard his name.
So, to all you waiting families I say this: Your day WILL come. The road will be long. There will be unexpected delays, but you will hold your child. You will bring them home. And about a year after your referral you will look back and wonder what you were so uptight about. : )
Looking at this photo now has so much more significance than it did then. Now it is the very first glimpse that we had into our son's life. It will be the earliest baby photo that he will posses. To new parents looking at the photo for the first time it was a picture of a tiny sleeping baby adorably holding his hands by his ears, but it was difficult to wrap our brains around the fact that said tiny baby was our tiny baby. To a mother who now knows her child, this photo was taken of my slightly unhappy babe who was struggling to get to sleep. He seemed so far away. I couldn't imagine that one year later he would be sitting in the living room happily watching Sesame Street while I typed a post about our referral phone call. I can hardly believe it has been a year since we first heard his name.
So, to all you waiting families I say this: Your day WILL come. The road will be long. There will be unexpected delays, but you will hold your child. You will bring them home. And about a year after your referral you will look back and wonder what you were so uptight about. : )
