Apr 25, 2008

darkness

I was confident that the US and Vietnam would work together to renew their agreement. The end goal, at least with ethical agencies and ethical government officials, is to find families for the children who need them. That seemed just noble enough to work through the varied points of view to arrive at a new agreement. I just knew it would happen. I was certain that we would be discussing a new application for the Vietnam program early next year if not before. At the moment, I just don't know. Vietnam is our country of choice for babe number two. It looks like the question is becoming how long we would be willing to wait.

Today the US Embassy in VN issued an official warning regarding VN options. You can read it here.

And then they issued the foreboding sounding Summary of Irregularities, which is every bit as disheartening as one might assume. Oh. My. God. I can barely even process this document. Previous statement implied that the corruption was isolated two a few provinces and a handful of corrupt judges. This... this sounds much more widespread. This makes my nervous.

I have no option but to believe that since we were issued I600 approval and a visa that there was no question regarding our child's orphan status. If I allow myself to question the validity of his documents my mind wanders to places that it simply should not go, thus I cannot allow myself to explore such questions. His documents were and are valid. Case closed.

What I can allow myself to wonder about is the birth country of his future siblings. Will they be Vietnamese? Korean? Cambodian? Chinese? I would prefer for my kids to have a shared cultural heritage, but if they have different birth countries I like the idea of said countries being in the same part of the globe, and/or having strong cultural similarities.

Today is a heavy day.